Don't cross the river if you can't swim the tide

So, I probably have fibromyalgia. I'm going to have to attempt to give up some of my OCD and high-strung ways. Otherwise, I'll spend my days in a passion of body-wide pain. This is not a tempting situation. I'm currently in the midst of a flare-up, obviously, which led me to see the doctor, which led to this diagnosis. She wants me to get some X-rays done, just to be sure, but she's fairly certain it's fibromyalgia. Soon I shall have my grubby paws on some muscle relaxers and some painkillers to make my life easier. I'm also back on sleeping pills, since sleep disturbance and deprivation can worsen the condition.

I appreciate the fact that I know now why I've had these pains for last couple of years, why I've had these flare-ups, and now I can treat them appropriately. I was upset for a while, angry at nobody, but now...now I'm at peace. Now I know what the problem is and can respond accordingly.

But the flesh betrays the mind/soul complex again. No, I'm not going way out on the melodramatic limb to say that my flesh is making me change *who* I am. I will always be OCD and high-strung. I simply have to modify the expression of that aspect of my personality, or be willing to endure body-wide pain. I'm not sure how to do that, but I guess I'll have to figure it out.